The Road Not Taken

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Before we divulge into the thoughts that are swarming around in my head, congratulations to my Giveaway winners! It always excites me when my winners are in such shock that they could actually win. You never know what can happen until you take the chance and try. Hmm am I sounding like a broken record? Probably.

Which leads me to my predicament; ok maybe predicament sounds too negative or dramatic but I am at a bit of a crossroads. I felt the need to just simply write today. I’m sure many of you are familiar with Robert Frost’s poem by the post title. It’s a classic and still one of my ultimate favorites:

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth; 5

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same, 10

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back. 15

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. 20

This couldn’t describe how I feel more perfectly. Feelings of distraction have swept over me but it’s a good thing. Sometimes I get so caught up in crossing off all of my to do’s for the day that I rarely take the moment to just look at the bigger picture. When I went out to Cancun with Matt recently, there was a moment where we just sat out, listened to the crashing waves, and had a raw heart to heart talk. These talks usually involve how we intend to progress in our careers. Matt is very similar to me. He is creatively driven with a healthy dose of business sense. We are constantly trying to find ourselves, therefore the amount of patience and trust we have with each other is what has allowed us to maintain our relationship. He has a tendency to wear himself much thinner than I do though so this getaway was much needed for the two of us.

I reached out to him earlier today about my new “predicament”, the one that’s distracting me and making me feel flustered, yea, that one. As much as I want to seek out the answer from my close friends and loved ones, I know that I ultimately have to decide for myself. Sometimes putting the trust in yourself is scary but i’ve always believed that a bit of discomfort and stress is a good thing. It pushes you and makes you stronger. I already feel a little more at ease just writing and letting some of it out. I live in my head a lot and go about my daily grind but I seriously feel so lucky to have you guys as my friends and I do want to let you in. I’m grateful for the trust that you have put in me.

The discussion doesn’t have to end here; if you guys are going through something similar, i’d love to hear from you!

xo, Christine